The Boolean Blog

  CW: Religious Trauma (mentioned) I've been getting into ambient? New Age? (don't understand the difference but willing to learn), this year and its an interesting experience. I feel like one of my main foibles is that I am a very anxious chonical insane person and the pressures of capitilism are not my friend. We live in a world that demands progress, results, metrics, and in stride I interalize a part of myself while I do not fear my own mortality I am quite aware that life is limited. I'm also an athiest so y'know probably doesn't help. I have a bad habit of treating consumption as a stopgap for emotional wellness when I feel empty I cram whatever I can into me until I feel full and theres this very real part of my life where I can go days or weeks at a time despressingly watching all of the ... idk silent night deadly night sequels. My favorite is either 3 of 4 there insane not the point. THe point is that I have for most of my life had a very hard time allowin...